6 x 6 in.

This is the fourth in the Anthropologie series, inspired by the most recent catalog cover, and colors styled by me~ I’ve been working on this one off and on all day as it took multiple attempts to get the face "right", but I’m happy with her sentiment now.

I was hoping to share some really exciting news with you today about an opportunity that felt like a "big" one ~ but after months of waiting, and a fair bit of work to pull it together ~ I learned that this opportunity will not be happening, at least not next week as it might have. And to be honest I’m disappointed and I really do "need a moment". And in this moment I realize that this is also a different opportunity than I thought. This is actually an opportunity for me to walk the walk that I talk so much about on this blog and especially my podcasts. A chance for me to be gracious within disappointment ~ a chance for me to really take notice of everything that is going so well every day, and to let that continue to take priority over everything else.

This is also a chance for me to actually take a moment. I’ve felt a bit like on the work side of things, I’ve been pushing and I haven’t been giving myself quite enough time "in the space between", like I wrote about in my recent article. I’m at a certain point with Creative Thursday where I’ve taken everything as far as I can see and it’s time to let go a bit. There’s a little sense of relief in the idea of that and also some fear as to what will happen if I do let go, but I’m sensing it’s time. So this disappointment is actually becoming a moment of clarity for me to get back in touch with what I want this all to be ~ and I keep having to ask myself why it is so important that I take this to the next level? It’s not that I question wanting more for myself and my business, but I question my intent behind it. I think as a business owner and a human being in the world, it’s always good to  check in with yourself. Sometimes it is all to easy to get caught up in life, only to realize that you’re pointed in the wrong direction. And spinning your wheels in the wrong direction can be a bit exhausting. It seems to require a lot less effort in the long run to take a moment ~ I’m learning. Now if only I can truly trust in the ebb and flow of expending effort instead of trying to "make" things happen all the time. Step by step, I’m figuring it out :)

Since I save this blog for times when I feel like I can share the best of myself, I will return when the best of myself returns, which could be tomorrow ~ but just in case it isn’t, and I need a few days, I wanted to let you know where I was.

I also wanted to say that one of the best parts about this opportunity that "didn’t happen", was the chance to "meet" some of the nicest new friends who really went the extra mile for me and I sincerely thank them for all their support and efforts in trying to pull this together :)

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